The Greater Good

Caregiving has created a new appreciation for spirituality for me. I have spent hours pondering some of the most difficult questions there are, the existence of a greater power, is there life after death, why does bad things happen to good people, why don't bad things happen to bad people, why does the nice grandma die first, does it really matter what church you attend, how can something as wonderful as chocolate do such bad things to my thighs, you know the burning questions of our times. And I have come to realize:

1. There has to be more to life than this, there has to be a greater understanding of life and its mysteries, than I have.
2. I hope there is some type of existence after death because I miss my mommy and I want to share everything she has missed.
3. I think devoting time to a devotional life be it formally in a church or gazing in wonder at the perfection of a flower in a field is important, not the who, what, where, why and when.
4. Bad things happen to good people, hence number 1.
5. Nice grandma's dying first, see number 1.
6. Chocolate teaches moderation.

By simplifying my life through coming to grips with a "greater good" or "higher power" or "divinity", giving control of my life to that being and accepting that it is not my place to judge others I have been able to make peace with myself and the twists and turns that life is taking.